F*rking MSN

I tell you I damn tulan with Streamyx now. Kanasai Streamyx. I've been trying to go on9 since 4 hours ago and in vain. Yes, I'm a bored with nothing better to do but on9. Damn Streamyx!!!! I hate it when I can't connect. I know its not my pc's fault but I'm very tempted to throw boulders at it now..Sheesh..

It is boring even if I manage to go on9. But I do get satisfaction from being able to connect and seeing my MSN icon turn green..lol.. Since I'm stuck at home and grounded going on9 is the only way I feel 'connected' with others. Oh what the heck. Been trying for zillion times and damn MSN still says "NO I WON'T LET YOU ON. BLEK!!". Fine then, GO TO HELL AND ROT AND INCINERATE!!!

I'm off to bed. This is too sickening. Good night.

The pig next door

I'm lacking of mood to blog lately. But thanks to Lilian I dragged myself to blog. Here goes. I shall just summarized my whole weeks activities specially for Lilian dear. Last weekend wasn't really a good one. I shall not go in details, since its pretty private. I am forced to go for another family dinner again this weekend. Oh what joy!! Besides that, I stayed at home, either staring at blank walls or obsessing over TVB drama.

And last weekend, I actually did something crazy..haha..Never mind about that. Soon you guys will know about it. Upon reaching home from that "mad activity", my neighbour's boyfriend's car was parked nearby. Let's call him OF. And that blardee moron's car took up some of my place. Now, I would have been more tolerant if this was his first time. But no!! This idiot has been doing so since we've moved in like 4 years ago. Come on genius, you don't need 4 years to learn that I need my compound to park my car. And most of the time we have to get down the car and ring the house to ask my neighbour to call OF to re-park his car. That day, he pulled my chain on the wrong time. I didn't bother calling him of course. You see, I don't need such long time (unlike him) to learn that he's brainless. I just parked my car so close to his..hahaha..So close I would say my bump is on his lips..kekekeke...My mum was a bit worried I may offend my neighbour, but sweat not! He should be thankful I gave him a free parking lesson. To add on, when I got down my car, I expressed my thoughts and feelings about him.

I can't really blame him on why he parked so close by based on 2 reasons.
1) If he parked directly in front of his gf's house, he'll be blocking his future brother in law's car. Therefore, he rather offend us than his future brother in law. A very smart move. Which amuses me why can't he be smarter about parking cars? Hmm. The next time he does it again, I'm gonna run over him and his fugly Matrix with a bulldozer. That will make him a less irksome piece of daging salai. (Daging salai is dried meat or bah gua).

2) This reason is what made me really sympathise him..*tissues* OF is fat. OF stands for obnoxious fatso. Yes, my friends. He's fat. Its common sense la. If he has to walk pretty far he'll sweat a lot. Fatties sweat proportionally to the amount of physical activities they do. So, he rather squeeze in front of my compound than sweat a lot. Totally understandable. But my dear OF, if you sweat a lot than it can help in your weight loss. Maybe he's afraid if he drove his car further somewhere else to park the tyres may puncture due to his extravagant weigh.

I still see him nowadays. Whenever I feel like angered, I manage to convince myself to pity him.

Ps: I did call out loud fatso. My mum said he most likely would have heard..hehe..Of course I care about how he feels about me. I'd prefer if he hates me..lol..Cause I effing loathe him =) And Lilian, I'm not being mean to you. Can't bear to..lol..CHeers!

My brain and raisins

Lately, I realised that I'm very blur. I seem to be forgetting stuff a lot and my ability to contemplate seems to decrease in speed. I have difficulty comprehending subjects matters. I think im suffering from senility..lol..However, since I have so much time in my hand. I put it to good use of course..hehe.. I started forming possibilities of why my brain activity seem to be declining. And I think I know why. It's the RAISINS!!!!!!!

Unlike normal beliefs, raisins have serious adversities on my brain..hahaha..I first discovered my "allergy" when I was 12. Assuming at normal times, my brain activity is functioning at a tip top 100%. Ignoring other factors and assuming all factors stay constant alright? 70% of brain function is for analyzing purposes and remainder 30% is for memory work. Hey what can I say, I have poor memory. In order to increase my ability to memorize facts, I ate raisins as said by many people; raisins help to improve your mind work especially memory. But the unfortunate happened.

Assuming my brain activity stays maximum at 100% and other factors are either constant or ignored, then my thinking rate will decrease to 40% and my memory rate will increase to 60%. Sucks right? Tell me about it. My brain capability is something I cant improve. So I have to compromise between my thinking ability and memory. Wtf..lol..If you ever thought of eating raisins to improve your mind's health, think again =)

XY chromosomes

Today's episode is awesomeness..wahahaha..Totally satisfied. Tomorrow night I have something up. Therefore my hunger for WAD will not be satisfied. Bad news. Back to WAD, when P knows K didn't sleep well lately, he specially made a pillow for. Rather lumpy looking but its the thoughts that counts right? hehehe.. It's so sweet when he lied to her that he bought the pillow instead of making it himself. But eventually she found out. Oh! The sweetness. The delight. The joy!! hahaha.. He definitely knows how to sweep a girl off her feet.

Here's something about attentive lover. An attentive lover makes a romantic lover look less appealing. Romantic. What is romance without consideration and concern. There is no point showering girl with sweet talks and gifts when one can't even show the slightest care over a girl. Right aren't I? However, if a lover is attentive, no amount of sugary words or diamonds can match up to it. Provided the girl is not an idiot that is..hehe..

While watching the series, it made me wander off into my devil's playground. Thinking of how should my dream guy be. I think he's quite close to P in the show..hehe..I have a tendency to fancy gentlemen. As in witty suave guys. No! Not James Bond. I hate guys like James Bond. They are suave but they do not exude the sincerity aura. Changing partners like changing clothes. Bunch of suckers.

A guy has to be erm, giving. Giving is a pretty general term. He has to be able to help you out in times of trouble and be there for you even if he cant help. He should not be siu hei. It's really sweet when you know you can just turn around and fall and he will be there to catch you. Regardless of what's happening. You can just open up in front of him, no need to wear a mask.

Oh and attentiveness. Super important. This is a MUST. Attentive guys includes being understanding and caring. Why is it super important? Come on guys. Be smart la. You should know what to do without being told. Guys who are attentive knows what has to be done because they bothered to find out about their other halves. It is extremely sweet when your guy does something for you which you didn't even realise its importance or existence till the need arises. It simply shows he thinks far ahead for you and is really concern about you. Sweet ain't it?

Wittiness is a plus point. Which girl do not appreciate a guy who can untangle themselves from any web they're in. Guys like these are usually collected and composed. Maybe because of this their expressions made them looks pretty confident thus they are able to pull it off in most situations. This is what you call suave. Yummy!! lol

In short, I have a thing for cool gentlemen =) I reckon my obsession over WAD's male lead will not be over that fast. Next few updates maybe be pertaining him still..hihihi..Nights people.

Awwwwww

Oh my God!! I'm totally smitten..hahahaha..I watched a series ( TVB) and I'm totally swooned off my seat..lol..I know the purpose of TVB is to create this impression from watchers but hey, I say they got what they wanted and they did it good. I simply adore this series I watched. The storyline is so-so but the love story between the leads are superb *GRINS*. Highly recommended for all romantic series-goers..hehehe..

The hero, I call him P and female lead, I call her K are enemies. Now, P appears mean like a greedy business man who stops at nothing for money. K is a dimwitted prude. This unlikely duo will eventually fall in love. The story is too long and complex for me to explain so I shall leave it like this. Moving on, P and K at first will not realise they have feelnigs for each other. In fact, during their feud, P has been always helping K unknown to her, doing all those little stuff that may lok minuscule but makes all the difference. At the beginning he was doing all these to compensate for his wrong to K's family. Circumstances however, forced them to live together. That's when all the romantic, ok, not romantic, sweet affairs begin.

Watching these 2 makes me wish to have someone like him. Seriously. He, I won't say is romantic but his actions and concern over her makes it more pleasing than a romantic lover. Ok, maybe that's my point of view. He's not only a lover to her but also a mentor. He teaches her,more like brought her out of nutshell. Shows her how to lead a better life. Basically, he makes her wanna be a better person.

I don't know what's my purpose of blogging about this movie. But I'm so taken by it I just need to let it out..lol..Totally anticipating for tonight's episode. He's going to be super sweet..ahahaha..Gosh, I can't wait. My heart is thumping to watch these 2 next step. Cheerio guys. Will blog once I'm done. Bye

Thornberry vs. Frogs

Frogs and I have not been getting along since last year. I don't why, I don't know how this green skinned species migrated near my house and croaks till heavens turned deaf whenever it rains. Seriously, if you're in my house now you will think there is a War of the Frogs happening.They croak and croak a symphony and my ear bleeds whenever it happens. Poor ear, subjected to horrendous torture. I'm a very fussy sleeper. I need conducive environment to sleep. A little too much of light or sound makes it impossible for me to sleep. And when I can't fall asleep, I get very very cross.

Since last year this bunch of loathsome creatures have been annoying me. The weather best for slumbering has been my nightmare since the ever-so-soothing-voiced frogs sings at night. All I can do is lie on my bed and scream curses in my heart of course ( I wouldn't wanna wake the neighbours) or most to most envision the worst way of torturing these bastards to death..hehe..My favourite would be the time when I dissected this abominable species during Form 5. If I can relive that moment; I wouldn't hesitate to inflict more pain on it.

Of course, envisioning alone is not enough. I have to walk the talk right? So I thought of a few strategies to annihilate these wretched green skins. Its Google-able =) (Google-able, 2006). How effective these methods are, I don't know. Haven't tried them.

1) Pour bleach into their habitat
2) Use rock salt
3) Pour pesticide
4) Clear any vegetations

The problem is there is not vegetations around here. I guess I have to settle for the other 3. Those 3 methods mainly burn these suckers skins and make them squirm and die...wahahaha...That's a beautiful sight to me. Many people complained about how cruel I am. Scroooooooooo it. You should be happy I'm not planning a murder on you...muahahaha...Oh well now I have a New Year resolution; rid the frogs =) That will ensure a peaceful night for me.
Goodnight folks. Cheers.

Confusion

I am at a crossroad. I have in my plate; what I should be doing and what I wanna do. You see these 2 actions have separate consequences. What I should be doing is a typical and boring course; result is pretty much predictable but low return. What I wanna do is basically taking a big risk, risk everything, it's stressful and erm...anticipating. The result is huge either positively or negatively. Risk is always proportional to return right? hahaha...Anyways, I can't decide if I should place all my chips on the gambling table or not. I mean it will be a huge loss if i lose. As in titanic. But if I win, it will be the sweetest thing ever. After much consideration, I've decided to go with what I should be doing. I'm not suppose to be carried away with desires and temptations right. But then again I'm thinking it over.

He loves me, he loves me not

After reading the post in Monkey's blog, I feel stirred and I think I should blog about it..hehehe..Here goes.

How to tell if a guy likes you. This is a tough nut to crack. I mean different people have different characters. Well of course there are some general signs or symptoms that guys show but are they all applicable? For me, in the game of love, there is no concrete rule or signs that is stipulated in the Love Bible. There is no Love Bible in the 1st place. Girls especially, immersed in love hold on to articles like ' Does He Like You' or ' How To Make Him Fall' like dear life; memorizing details from the articles and trying to apply them into real life. When I was younger, I was gullible enough to worship those articles and I try to slip it in every opportunity I get. Naive right? I know..hahaha..But as I grew up, I begin to realize that there is no law that you can strictly follow in love.

What I learned is, love is a very limber and subjective subject. One cant specifically state why he/ she like someone when others don't. If you can, then you ought to consider whether you like that person or is it just mere admiration. That is what makes love so unconditional but at the same time that is what caused most misery. When you can't identify why you like someone, then you can't pinpoint the source of the problem. Thus, this is the situation called stuck in love aka unable to let go. Once I have this friend who had problem with his gf. He always call me to ask "How do I make her appreciate me?" or "Why doesn't she like me anymore?". I can't give him a clear cut answer of course. I'm no Dr. Love but I know where I stand to judge whether I have a chance or not. Others may call this pessimism but I say this is what saves me from doing the absurd. Ego is my weakness and also defense.

I've watched many people succumb to love...haha..I didn't escape the spell of love as well. And I've seen many fight hard to move on and not less falter too. I've seen extreme cases to where one totally cut off ties from another in order to move on. And I've seen many ended with peace. Call me lucky but all of mine ended peacefully. No grudges held.

Recipes for letting go? I bet there is no definite one too. I guess the best cure is time. Most crucial is to stop yourself from feeling more pain. Making yourself believe that it has ended is the 1st step. Stop banking on false hopes. Pretending not to care is a dead end step. You can't lie to yourself that you don't care anymore. Each time you try to convince yourself that you're over it is going to drain more energy from you. I think letting things flow and just be positive is the best. And also, just accept things with an open mind and heart.

True enough the saying ' Heroes are fools when they are in love'. Couldn't agree less. Need to sleep soon. Good day people.

Home Sweet Home 2

Today, is a boring day. I went to uni to pass the monyets stuff. Couldn't join them to 1U so went back. Had some sister responsibility to fulfill. Came back then a bestie of mine came over to house. Had some emotional issues. So I took on the role of a counselor instead. Besides that, nothing really significant happened. Therefore, I shall continue from where I stopped yesterday.

The 3rd point, blood is NOT thicker than water. Ok, here's my argument. In life, it is nice to have this illusion that there's this group of people who will standby you through thick and thin, good and bad, rainy and sunny; people who you call family. But does it really happen in reality? Hmm, I'm not too sure. Many people may disagree with me as in it is pretty cliched to think that family is the most important asset in our lives. In actual fact, that notion depends too on several factors. Most important of all how close you are to these people and of course how can they benefit you. Money plays an important role too. Family ties crushed due to money matters. Nowadays, money can be comparable to blood ties. Disagree with me? Ok, let me rebut you. Think of the 1st scenario. You have this cousin whom you are not close to. He ask you to lend him $10k. Will you lend him? I don't think so. You rather lend the money to your bestie who's in trouble. Why? Cause that's your bestie and he's able to help u more than your distant relative in times of trouble. And not to forget, u can claim your money back from him with lesser hassle. So its proven my 1st point. Moving on to 2nd scenario. Lets say this relative always ask money from you. Never fail to. Will you like him? Will you try your best to avoid him? I bet the answer is no and yes. Point proven again. At the end of the day, Darwin's law holds. People choose what is best for them to survive and not family ties or what so ever. Maybe in the past, but not anymore. A relative who keeps coming for money will definitely not benefit you in any form. Thus, you avoid him. Easy logic ain't it? My point is, sometimes people help those they are close to regardless of blood ties. I'm not saying everyone is like that, I'm saying majority of people are. Still disagree with me? Then you should be living in fairytale land =) Friends are siblings that God forgot to give us. Friends are people we choose among all others to be close to us. But relatives are God sent. We can't choose who we wanna be related to. That shows why sometimes we appreciate friends more than relatives. I won't deny, friends can just leave in split seconds but can't family too? Family ties stays but will family stay when you're in trouble? What is the use of ties when they're not there? For me, I will be nice to those who are nice to me despite blood ties. If you're a family but you're mean to me, I will do the same to you. The only members that matters to me are immediate families. Other than that, I may give priorities to friends depending on situation. I'm not afraid to admit that friends may come 1st than non-immediate members.

4th point. Confidence...hahaha..What made me feel confident..hmm..How else can a girl feel confident besides improving her looks? I shan't go on this one. It's too personal. Not here anyways..lol..pictured uploaded in the next entry =)

Home Sweet Home 1

Disclaimer: This post may be offensive to certain readers. If you do not have a permissive mind, please stop reading. Thank you.
A recap of what happen the past few days. I went Penang on the 28th Dec, 5am. Spent 4 days 3 nights. This trip even though boring, I wouldn't say I totally regret it. In fact I like it. At heart, I learn or shall I say gain 3 things out of this trip:
1) Nowhere is better than home
2) Penang drivers are bloody nincompoops
3) Blood is NOT thicker than water. At least not always
4) Confidence..lol..

Let's start with the 1st point. After spending 2 days in Penang *sweat* I feel effing bored. I spent 90% of my time wondering what I'm gonna do next and blowing my nose and being self-conscious about my tan. My tan was really bad. My mum laments whenever she sees it. It recovering now. Going off slowly. Really slowly. On the first night, I spent my night in Sungai Petani. The hotel I was in freaking cold. My nose was running like a leaked pipe. The next day, I was glad to move out of the hotel to Penang island...hehe...I don't fancy Sungai Petani.

Going to northern Malaysia allows me to conclude that Northern drivers are dimwitted diddle daddle ninnies. They are EFFING SLOWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!! Gawd!!! I tell you damn tulan when u drive behind them. GRRRR...When the light is red, it means beat it. If the light is green it means go. If the light is yellow it means speed up la morons!! Aduhai. That is Malaysian logic la. Whatever the light shows it still means go. Those bunch of imbeciles, even if its green they take their own grandfather's time and cross. Hello macha, if you're in KL, we would have run you over with our cars. And reverse and run you over repeatedly. Can't blame them can we? People there are pretty relax. They move slow, walk slow, talk slow. Thank goodness I'm not living there. Everytime I see the speed they move, I envision taking an invisible whip and whip their asses off! The average speed they move = speed of old Ah Po in KL. Can you feel the heat now? Right. It's damn frustrating driving behind a car that moves no faster than a bullock cart.

As for the 3rd and 4th point and pictures, I will update that tomorrow or soon. I'm tired of blogging now. This post is suppose to be full of curses and I can't perform that right now. Not in the mood..lol..I will leave it for tomorrow. Nitez. Good day.

Homecoming

poeple!!! thornberry is back....miss me?? miss me??