Sometimes I pause at the littlest thing I do. And I wonder; if you are here what would you have done; what difference will you make. I guess I'm missing your presence; struggling to embrace your absence. So far your position is still left vacant and I doubt there is anyone that can perfectly fit the space you left. Maybe I might find someone that can provide as much consolation as you did but I know. No, know is an understatement. I am sure that your seat is forever empty. Cause no one can produce the same resume as you.
It seems like yesterday we last spoke. Seeing your icons idle, knowing that it will never come to life again makes me feel empty inside. Sometimes you run through my thoughts and I get an impulse to talk to you but I know you won't be there anymore. Our last conversation wasn't the sweetest and if I know what I know today, I will tell you how wonderful you are.
Your passing is definitely more profound than anticipated. I miss you very much and these words isn't even half of what I feel inside. Words just ain't enough.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Far and away
Tomorrow, I'm going on a trip. Some crap trip to Malacca which I'm not looking forward to. Yeap, I have the chance to make new people, make new friends, widen my horizon, bla bla bla, I don't give a shit. I just wanna go to office, see my stuck up colleagues, suck up to them, get stuck in jam, get really mad, and come back home. I'll be back on Wednesday only. I'm leaving noon tomorrow. Carrying huge luggage to office and keeping it for the first half of the day isn't exactly my favourite scenario. Urgh this is such nuisance.
My main problem with travelling, and sharing a room with an unknown stranger is sleeping. As I have mention in my earlier posts, sleeping is the most crucial time for me. Anything that gets in between me and my sleep will not have a happy ending. I'm a new comer in my office, I won't like creating conflicts with newly met colleagues. But problem starts if my roomie is getting in the way with my sleep. If she snores or on the lights to sleep, or do anything possible that interferes my sleep, she won't like me very much and neither will I like her. Plus, I don't know nuts about her. How can I trust to leave my belongings in the room? Ok maybe I am being too cynical. But has occurrences in this society provide any comfort in the safety of your belongings? I don't think so. There is a thin line separating cynicism and caution.
Anyways, knowing Thornberry, she has always thought of a way to solve potential problems :D I'm bringing my ever so faithful anti histamine and codeine :) What is that? That's my sleep-inducing potion. Lol. Yes, I abuse drugs but for good intentions. So in case of roomie interference with my sleep, I can just pop those beauties into my mouth and snore the whole night through. That will teach her a lesson about disrupting my sleep. Hehe.
I'm done packing for now. At least I think I brought everything. And I'm not looking forward to be walking around with the extra huge luggage. Embarrassing. Not to mention heavy. Bleh. So much for orientation trip.
Whatever la. Goodnight.
My main problem with travelling, and sharing a room with an unknown stranger is sleeping. As I have mention in my earlier posts, sleeping is the most crucial time for me. Anything that gets in between me and my sleep will not have a happy ending. I'm a new comer in my office, I won't like creating conflicts with newly met colleagues. But problem starts if my roomie is getting in the way with my sleep. If she snores or on the lights to sleep, or do anything possible that interferes my sleep, she won't like me very much and neither will I like her. Plus, I don't know nuts about her. How can I trust to leave my belongings in the room? Ok maybe I am being too cynical. But has occurrences in this society provide any comfort in the safety of your belongings? I don't think so. There is a thin line separating cynicism and caution.
Anyways, knowing Thornberry, she has always thought of a way to solve potential problems :D I'm bringing my ever so faithful anti histamine and codeine :) What is that? That's my sleep-inducing potion. Lol. Yes, I abuse drugs but for good intentions. So in case of roomie interference with my sleep, I can just pop those beauties into my mouth and snore the whole night through. That will teach her a lesson about disrupting my sleep. Hehe.
I'm done packing for now. At least I think I brought everything. And I'm not looking forward to be walking around with the extra huge luggage. Embarrassing. Not to mention heavy. Bleh. So much for orientation trip.
Whatever la. Goodnight.
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