Confusion

I am at a crossroad. I have in my plate; what I should be doing and what I wanna do. You see these 2 actions have separate consequences. What I should be doing is a typical and boring course; result is pretty much predictable but low return. What I wanna do is basically taking a big risk, risk everything, it's stressful and erm...anticipating. The result is huge either positively or negatively. Risk is always proportional to return right? hahaha...Anyways, I can't decide if I should place all my chips on the gambling table or not. I mean it will be a huge loss if i lose. As in titanic. But if I win, it will be the sweetest thing ever. After much consideration, I've decided to go with what I should be doing. I'm not suppose to be carried away with desires and temptations right. But then again I'm thinking it over.